Effects on Men

What Happened to All Those Fathers?
 
Every aborted child had a mother and a father.  But how many people ever really give that much thought?
 
Because we live in a world that insists that abortion is an issue that only women get to have a voice in, the contribution that the father of a child would or should make into that child’s life has almost become a non-issue. In many cases, the fathers are not consulted, because it’s assumed that they don’t have a say in the issue, or their reaction is expected to be so harsh and threatening that the woman feels she has no choice but to take matters into her own hands.
 
In either case, what’s left is a man who fathered a child but who never made a contribution to that child’s life. Not only was the life of his child abruptly and violently taken, but this father never got to invest in his progeny.
 
His child was definitely denied his or her life, but what was this father denied?

This father was denied making the kind of contribution that, in part, defines a man as a man: leadership, heart, problem-solving, money, reputation, creativity, commitment, fight, love, pain, and resolve.
 
Somehow those kinds of losses are recorded in the soul of a man (no matter what his age) as a deep and significant failure. And it only reinforces the “most feared” answer to the question that every man asks of himself: “Do I have what it takes?” When he hears a resounding “no” to that question, he then accepts another layer of guilt, shame and emasculation.
 
Bill writes, “I believed that I had no influence or voice in the decision. I believed the lie that this decision was ‘her choice’ alone and so it happened that 30+ years ago, I stood by silently and waited while an abortionist took my child’s life. It profoundly wounded his mother, destroyed a family and stole my belief in who I was as a man.”

Another man writes, “I wasn’t in the room: I wasn’t even in the clinic that day. But in my mind, I’ve been there a million times since. I’ve been there watching, breaking, wanting to rescue you. In my mind, I need to be a hero not a killer, the man who didn’t flee. But I am not. I am the man I fear to see.”

​Adam writes, “Then it was time, they lead her away, and I could see in her face that she was so incredibly scared… I was so scared… I still clearly remember sitting in a colorless waiting room watching a mindless game show on a mounted wall TV. This was to be the entertainment for the men while their children were being murdered in the room next door… every part of me was silently screaming out for help… I was sick to my stomach… I wanted to vomit. Just 20 feet away my girlfriend was going through the most traumatic 30 minutes of her life. I wanted to run in and take her place and have them do it to me instead.

Professor Arthur Shostak of Drexel University surveyed 1,000 men waiting in abortion clinics while their girlfriends and wives were having abortions.  He concluded the following:

• 42% of the boyfriends had offered to marry the woman.
• 25% of those who did not offer to marry the woman offered child support.
• Most of the men, regardless of their feelings toward abortion, offered to pay the costs of the abortion procedure.
• 9% of the men believed that life began at conception or when the nervous system began to function.
• 26% believed that the abortion was the “killing of a child”.

​Shostak’s study found a vast range of emotions among the men.  They feared for the woman’s health, felt guilty about the abortion or the pregnancy, felt self-doubt and also anguish and pain over the loss of their children and over the entire abortion ‘experience’.
 
Are you an ‘aborted father’?  One whose child was aborted with or without your consent?  There are many ways to get help if you are a woman, but for a man, there are very few places you can turn.  Here is a start.  Connect with us at godeeperstillark…. For more information and/or to get information about attending your own Deeper Still retreat.

​Do you want to learn more? Contact us at [email protected].

For the past 27 years, I have silently carried this decision, this wound, and this relentless memory. For 27 years, I have stuffed it, packed it and locked it away… far, far, far away… simply hoping that over enough time and enough years that it would finally be gone. There are times when I can almost convince myself that it is indeed gone. But if I press in just a bit further, I can still see that stupid game show and then I know that it was all real and all a part of who I have now become.”
 
Perhaps you can relate to some of these thoughts and feelings. We first want you to know that you are not alone in your struggle and that you don’t have to live in silent torment for the rest of your life. 
 
For years our Deeper Still retreats were tailored only for women. But we found that after every retreat at least one woman would ask, “do you have something like this for my husband?” Or, “I sometimes wonder about the father of my baby…if he ever thinks about it or if he ever felt any of the pain that I have over the years.”
 
After much prayer and seeking the counsel of some men who have walked a similar journey, we decided that it was time to open our Deeper Still retreats to include men as participants along with our women. Even though there are differences in how men and women express their guilt, pain and shame, as well as in how they receive their healing, it’s still true that men and women both need to bring their broken hearts and lives to the same Cross and the same Savior.
 
Abortion has caused much enmity and strife between men and women. When bitterness has been allowed to grow in a woman’s heart toward the man or men that have hurt her, or likewise if bitterness is in the heart of a man toward the woman or women who have betrayed him, then those offenses tend to get generalized toward all men or all women. When this happens, there is always a deep-seated distrust toward the opposite sex.
 
The good news – We have seen the Lord break down those barriers and wash away years of hurt, bitterness, anger, betrayal, suspicion, and contempt that men and women have held toward the opposite sex. As these brothers and sisters in Christ have heard each other’s hearts and have understood the consequences of their own choices toward another, then they have been able to repent, forgive and release those who personally hurt them. God will use other people in our lives to “represent” the people that have hurt us.
 
 
Here are a few testimonies from some of our women participants about the men at the retreat and some men about the women.
 
“And to the men that were with us this weekend. A heartfelt thank you for being so vulnerable.  As so many have already said, it was just amazing to see you all with your bears, holding them and sharing your stories with us. I cannot imagine our weekend without each and every one of you!”
 
“As I was able to see each of you men sharing your pain, your stories, your fear, all of that helped me to see that your suffering was as real as mine.  I want to ask for forgiveness from you men because in my fear I have hurt many of you as well, please forgive me for thinking you were not trustworthy, not worthy of respect and appreciation.  But I am thankful that it is not too late for me.  I look forward to how the Lord will redeem this area in my life as well.”
 
“I am incredibly grateful to the men for giving me the words to help (my husband) know that he is not alone and that it is his pain too not just mine.”
 
“And thank you to all the ladies for welcoming us men into your “personal space.”  Sharing your pain allows men to realize how deeply wounding our actions toward women has been. God is using your testimony for His glory in helping to awaken men to our responsibility in abortion.”
 
“Ladies, I repent on behalf of all the men that have let you down as the protector and allowed you to spill innocent blood through abortion. I stand before you now and ask you to forgive us men for failing to protect you. I take responsibility for my inactions, that led to your pain and shame. I ask you to forgive me for this and for hurting your “mother’s heart.” I now speak blessing over you spiritually, financially and emotionally. I call you blessed in the name of Jesus, Amen!”
 
We hope these testimonies have encouraged you to take that next step that you have put off for way too long. There will be healing and lasting freedom for you. The only thing you have to lose is your chains!

Please take a few minutes and listen to this podcast for men featuring Karen Ellison, founder of Deeper Still, speaking on the subject of men & abortion​ https://www.podbean.com/eu/pb-8mctw-d9748c ​.